So-so

The most annoying thing to me would be the fact that people either take me too seriously, or not at all. What I may type, may not be so serious as it may seem. What I may say, may be so serious sometimes! It annoys me to the bone (I am not immuned to making such mistakes, thus I do get annoyed at myself when I've realized I've done this too) is when people take something you've said or written to the most idiotic extent. Must people think I mean something in a context so against what they might view? Must people think i'm idiotic to the point where what I say is invalid? Who knows. I am only writing in this blog to just let streams of conciousness flow, nothing more. Whatever I state, suggest or think of is merely just ideas that come to me at that precise moment or something/some idea that I can't seem to get off my mind for the past hour, past day, month even. That's all.

Hah, sounds like I just made a sort of "warning" or a "disclaimer" for myself and what I type. So silly and yet, nowadays, it's most needed amongst so many people that may come across this blog. Troublesome.

Today is...Wednesday, yeah, wednesday. The week is nearly ending. Wow, that went by faster than I would've liked. Although, I would rather prefer the weekends anyhow. Although I do my best to be a better student than I was in high school, i still have hurdles to jump, trees to avoid, dogs to outrun and so on. How annoying, don't you think? Of course, I'm not the only one with such obstacles to avoid, I know that. But, I can complain about it all I want really, I is my life to complain about, everyone can do that. But...I guess, I wouldn't make the effort to really tell anyone person my troubles, my thoughts, my views, etc etc. It just depends on whether or not I feel that they wouldn't mind me saying things about it or would even care in the slightest. So far, I've only met just a few individuals that would even mind listening to such things from my life. Although the people are nice here, (I haven't had one single person bother me just yet) it really is hard to find those few people who wouldn't mind talking to you, and wouldn't mind hearing you out. Sure, there are the small chats, that involves some of that. But only a taste - only the tiniest of revelations and admittance being uttered. Out of the hundreds and hundreds of people I have been coming across over the past month plus, there have only really been about three people I can find this value in. Sad, isn't it? Heh, whatever, I am by no means depressed. I really don't feel one emotion most over the others really right now. By reading this you might be thinking - 'oh my, what problems!' or 'Heh, whatever, happens to all of us.' or even that infamous phrase nowadays 'don't be emo.' but what a waste that'd be on me really. I don't care what anyone's opinions are on what I type in here - It's my words to be said, it's my life i'm expressing from, it's my mind thinking up these ideas and problems and realizing and analyzing everything I'm coming across. There is nothing more that annoys me more than those who think they know me, but don't try to get to know me at all. Heh.

This week...it's going by rather quickly. I have very little time for the few things I need to get going. For instance, for my humanities class, I need to find someone to write a biography about. 7-10 pages I believe it has to be, and it's even encouraged to write more than that! I'm not sure who I would really want to write about. Since I find such fascination about people from the Asian cultures, especially those from Japan, I probably will look into that area of the world to find someone. I'm thinking about it - maybe some sort of actor? minister? emperor? I'm not sure. When I think of any one famous from Japan - I think of Emperor Hirohito or maybe Yamashita Tomohisa or Tegoshi Yuya. Maybe... Takahashi Rumiko or Toriyama Akira. heh, who was that lady with all the famous shoujo manga? Watase Yuu i believe her name was. I'm thinking about those people who created/animated Neon Genesis Evangelion. Those darn people and their twistedness - they must be commended. But then again... out of all these people...the only one that made some sort of history and was apart of some important piece of history, was Emperor Hirohito. The Japanese people loved him, and yet...he didn't put forth the power to stop the Japanese from going into war. However, it wasn't entirely his fault, nor was it entirely in his power to prevent. His power was limited, and the reasons for the Japanese (at that moment in time) to go forth to expansion was for the survival of their nation. Remember, and for the note to those who don't know or can remember, the Japanese were very depended on some outside resources that the Islands of Japan do not have. One main one being oil. And who had cut off the Japanese oil at the ending of the 1930s? Why, the United States did. Of course, with their expanding, they were going to the Asian Contient to gain more resources by conquering over other nations/states, but that's for another discussion. Anyways...how in the world did I end up talking about WWII Japan? Ah, the biography for humanities - I think I'll do someone from Japan. Maybe S.Korea...or maybe Vietnam? China maybe? We'll see.

I have noticed my eating habits are rather troublesome. Some days, I don't get to eat more than once that day, having to do a lot of work, school and not. Other days, when I want to travel down to the dining commons, I find myself nervous and diswanting of even making the trip down there...even if it is just a pathway away. And then, there are the days that I do find the time to get breakfast, lunch and dinner. Usually these days, 2 of the 3 meals end up being from some fast food place and not of the healthiest hue of food either. I sure hope I'm not going to end up with diabeties just yet, I rather not have my blood taken out of me so many times in one week, thank you very much.

I think I've learned my lesson. Next semester, I'm going to make sure all my classes take place AFTER 10am. No way am I going to go through a WHOLE year of school with a full load, work and classes starting at 8 am in the morning. Hell no. No thank you. Although, I do plan on making it through this semester passing all my classes. I really don't like the fact of failing any of my classes, especially it being the first semester of my university career. And for sure...I need to rethink how i get around. I don't really like the fact of having to wake up much earlier than I need to just to get downtown on time for classes. Such an annoying hassle. heh. Well...at least I learn yeah? I learn. But the fact of me fixing it is the time of great intake. Will I? or Will I not? Who knows but me in the end hm?

How does this work..?

It's already Sunday and my weekend feels like it's just started. In all truthfulness, it just has anyhow and I regret it nearing an end so soon. I wish I had the ability to plan out more than just a few things easier. I regret not being able to as I have no one, but 4 papers to write later on today in various degrees of difficulty. What am I to do? I'll figure it out. Just so long I do do them, and I give it a tremendous effort (or at least however much effort I'm able to put in while not being distracted all the while) and complete them all at a...somewhat decent time.



I can't remember the last time (or if ever really) that I've written a blog. So...How does this work..? I guess I'll get the hang of it after a while, ne?



Things for me have...been changing a lot recently. Well, more like over a span of 1 or so months. I moved - I'm sure plenty of people know that already but oh well. I started University officially on September 4th (although I didn't have classes that day haha) and I now have a job along with my studies. Of course, it was a job out of necessity - I was awarded Work-Study from the government, thus, I had to get a job before September 30th or else my award would be cancelled and I would be missing more than a few grand of tuition for the whole year >.>; Anyhow - that's taken care of, so not much need to worry. I'm currently taking 6 classes - I wanted to be crazy, yep.

For some reason (while probably relays to the fact I'm horrible at new things with technology when first getting at it) I can't seem to be able to add pictures... I'll figure it out sometime soon. Hopefully.

There's other things on my mind...Nowadays I'm thinking on sparse moments about friendships and it's flaws. It's more so the fact that I can't seem to easily make any friends, and I can't really please or reach out to or grab onto the friends I've already made and know. Why's it so hard to do anyways? Is there some sort of friendship code I don't know about? It's all crap. I rather do things without it being so damn complicated. I mean, really. How come things are so hard when you really wish they weren't? Life. It's such a tedious puzzle. In the words of Shikamaru - Troublesome. Don't kid me wrong. I love my friends with all I got - even though I am confused as to what love really is... I'm real sure I feel it for them. No matter how much different they are to me nor how much different their views and opinions are to mine. I still care about them.